I noticed the cheesecake in there right before bed Sunday evening. It's Nick's favorite, so my in-laws left it for him. It was purchased with him in mind, afterall. I'm not mad, but I know this is going to be a long week, especially with the remembrance that the next day is Halloween. What am I going to do? I've really been struggling the last few months. Every time a cake or crumble or pie or cookies have been left here, I've pretty much devoured them all by myself throughout the week. I really should have gained more than 10 lbs over the last couple months.
All night, I toss and turn, disappointed in myself for the way things have been with my diet and trying to block the sweet voice of the cheesecake calling out for me.
ENOUGH! I think to myself.
I've had enough of this! Food consuming me instead of me consuming it! My goodness! I'm a 27-year-old woman who has been through more than most my age and I'm letting this...CRAP...control my life! I mean, really?!?! Losing sleep over a frakking cheesecake being in my fridge?!?! That's ridiculous!
As soon as I got up, I walked up to my white board...setting pounds lost goals isn't working...what to do? Then it hit me. I write: "Goal for the week: Do not eat the cheesecake". Good. I'll have to look at that every morning, afternoon, and night.
What about Halloween? Goodness gracious. We're taking Bear trick or treating and she's not old enough for most candy. I know it will be hanging out in a basket. I look frakking AWESOME in my costume despite my dismal failure and Bear is adorable and Nick is still protesting costumes until I'll let him buy a $700 Storm Trooper costume (keep dreaming, darling). We meet up with our friends Dan, Rachel, and their 6-month-old Clara (cute little ducky) and we head out the door. Door after door give us candy even though they know it's not our babies that will be eating it. Some give out handfuls saying they haven't seen any all night and some even give us full-sized-candy bars.
When we get back to my in-laws' house, we give a lot of Bear's candy to Champ, since he's older and can enjoy it, so that brings it down quite a bit, but there is still some left. I decide I'll let myself enjoy some candy until Wednesday, then no more. 3 fun-sized Snickers, fun-sized Almond Joy, full-sized dark chocolate Dove bar, several fun-sized boxes of Dots, and a mini Haribo gummy bears spread through Monday evening and Tuesday.
So here we are...Friday. How have I done this week? I am PROUD to report that I have had NO cheesecake since the Potluck on Sunday and NO candy since Tuesday! I've also consistently been working out and tracking on myfitnesspal. I feel so good! Another thing I've been doing to curb my sweet tooth is indulging in a cup of hot chocolate every morning. It's not that bad, especially made with water and I have no desire to partake in sweets for the rest of the day.
We have lots of work in the yard to do tomorrow because we had to bring down 8 more trees, so I'll be burning TONS of calories tomorrow. I'm looking forward to the weekend for the first time in a long time because I feel I've once again conquered food and can enjoy the company of my family without fretting about the food. Weigh-in on Monday should be good!
I agree, you shouldn't be losing sleep over cheesecake! You can have everything in moderation, but I tend to just not have anything in my house. I know I cannot control myself if I buy it. Maybe your family could try to find healthier options for treats. For instance, I have always drank milk substitutes, i.e. soy, rice, or almond milk as I do not like cows milk. Phil used to think it would be nasty, but now I have to chew him out for drinking mine!!! He has his own milk!! HAHA...You would be surprised about what healthy stuff the whole family can enjoy! Sure you can't make them decide to be healthy, but hopefully they could at least try to keep tempting things away from you!
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