I stood staring at the scale.
I can't do it...I don't want to know. Yesterday was horrible.
You HAVE to do it. Today is Weigh-In Day.
Can't I do it tomorrow after I've had a chance to fix what I did?
No.
"Ugh." I stepped on the scale and watched the zeros cross the display from left to right a couple times...I felt like I was on The Biggest Loser, waiting on the number. It felt so long, even though they only crossed the screen twice. 192. *sigh* A 3.2 lb gain.
Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! After all that talk about Fat not taking a sick day and pushing through and all that jazz, I blew it! Kyoto AND McDonald's?!?! Are you kidding me?
OK...so you had a gain. This happens. If it were easy, it wouldn't be a "journey," it would be a one-way path with no turns or curves.
Oh shut up! *punches will-power* OW!
I learned my lesson last time...like my new helmet?
Ugh...
I'm just SO angry with myself. I've been so sick and I pushed myself SO hard to work out and watch what I ate up until the bad news at the dentist's office. I mean...really?!?!? Did I really think this would NOT be the results? No. But one can hope to maintain despite bad eating...lol. I was going to take a break today from moving about, but this just solidifies that Fat doesn't take a break. The hibachi food and Double Quarter Pounder are sitting on my abs...I can feel it...and they need to go away. I will dance them away and be back down under the 190's next Monday despite Thanksgiving! Mark my frakking words!
Comicon 2013Starting Weight: 194
Current Weight: 192
Comicon 2013 Goal Weight: 160
Pounds to Lose: 32
Pounds Per Week: 3.2 (yikes!)
Don't beat yourself up, you will do better!
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