Remembering Nathaniel

On this day in 2009, I lost my unborn baby, who I named Nathaniel (gift from God) after the loss.

Unless you have experienced a miscarriage, there is no way to comprehend the loss. It's not only a loss of a precious little life, but of the potential life he or she had in front of him or her. First steps, first day of school, graduation, wedding, watching him or her become a parent. I will never experience those things with Nathaniel. Never.

I remember him on this day every year. It was how I was able to pull myself out of the funk the loss pulled me into. I promised myself one day a year to mourn him. Not that I don't remember him the rest of the year, but this day, I allow myself to grieve.

To all those out there who have experienced a similar loss, I know what you're going through. You probably won't ever forget your little one, but life will get easier to live as time passes. I remember you and keep you in my prayers today.

Taking a break from my diet and exercising today. Will get back on again tomorrow.