Leftovers

Leftovers...these are the worst kind.  Not dinner leftovers, but leftovers from Pastor's Appreciation Sunday, namely a cheesecake, and Halloween candy.  Both are in my house right now.

I noticed the cheesecake in there right before bed Sunday evening.  It's Nick's favorite, so my in-laws left it for him.  It was purchased with him in mind, afterall.  I'm not mad, but I know this is going to be a long week, especially with the remembrance that the next day is Halloween.  What am I going to do?  I've really been struggling the last few months.  Every time a cake or crumble or pie or cookies have been left here, I've pretty much devoured them all by myself throughout the week.  I really should have gained more than 10 lbs over the last couple months.

All night, I toss and turn, disappointed in myself for the way things have been with my diet and trying to block the sweet voice of the cheesecake calling out for me.

ENOUGH! I think to myself.

I've had enough of this!  Food consuming me instead of me consuming it!  My goodness!  I'm a 27-year-old woman who has been through more than most my age and I'm letting this...CRAP...control my life!  I mean, really?!?!  Losing sleep over a frakking cheesecake being in my fridge?!?!  That's ridiculous!

As soon as I got up, I walked up to my white board...setting pounds lost goals isn't working...what to do?  Then it hit me.  I write: "Goal for the week: Do not eat the cheesecake".  Good.  I'll have to look at that every morning, afternoon, and night.

What about Halloween?  Goodness gracious.  We're taking Bear trick or treating and she's not old enough for most candy.  I know it will be hanging out in a basket.  I look frakking AWESOME in my costume despite my dismal failure and Bear is adorable and Nick is still protesting costumes until I'll let him buy a $700 Storm Trooper costume (keep dreaming, darling).  We meet up with our friends Dan, Rachel, and their 6-month-old Clara (cute little ducky) and we head out the door.  Door after door give us candy even though they know it's not our babies that will be eating it.  Some give out handfuls saying they haven't seen any all night and some even give us full-sized-candy bars.

When we get back to my in-laws' house, we give a lot of Bear's candy to Champ, since he's older and can enjoy it, so that brings it down quite a bit, but there is still some left.  I decide I'll let myself enjoy some candy until Wednesday, then no more.  3 fun-sized Snickers, fun-sized Almond Joy, full-sized dark chocolate Dove bar, several fun-sized boxes of Dots, and a mini Haribo gummy bears spread through Monday evening and Tuesday.

So here we are...Friday.  How have I done this week?  I am PROUD to report that I have had NO cheesecake since the Potluck on Sunday and NO candy since Tuesday!  I've also consistently been working out and tracking on myfitnesspal.  I feel so good!  Another thing I've been doing to curb my sweet tooth is indulging in a cup of hot chocolate every morning.  It's not that bad, especially made with water and I have no desire to partake in sweets for the rest of the day.

We have lots of work in the yard to do tomorrow because we had to bring down 8 more trees, so I'll be burning TONS of calories tomorrow.  I'm looking forward to the weekend for the first time in a long time because I feel I've once again conquered food and can enjoy the company of my family without fretting about the food.  Weigh-in on Monday should be good!

The End of Weight Watchers For Me

Well, Halloween is over.  I ended up +10 instead of -20 for my goal, but was still able to fit into a NORMAL size costume!

Unfortunately, this also means The End of Weight Watches for me.  I want to make sure you know this is not a reflection of Weight Watchers.  I have had a TON of success on the program and highly recommend it.  If I get into a better financial place in the future and I still need to lose weight, I will rejoin, but hopefully I'll be nice and healthy by the time that happens.

I haven't blogged lately because there has been a lot of construction going on and it has blocked me from being able to tether the internet from my phone.

I will continue to blog here at my new blog for those of you who are interested in continuing to follow my progress.  Bless you all!

Weekend Semi-Success

Not considering this weekend a full-blown success, but it was BETTER.  I was more in control and stayed active.  Saturday, I was out chopping up branches from the trees we've cut down and burning stuff for 6 hours. (Yay for fire!)  Holy carp was I stiff the next day!  Ate well, though, so that's a plus.

Sunday, I was in total control.  Stayed within my allotted calories and even did some Just Dance 3 a little in the evening.  I think this coming weekend will be a total success!  I'm excited for it!

We bought Bear's and my Halloween costumes yesterday.  I've accepted that this was an utter failure, but I'm ok with it because what's success without a little failure.  I was still able to buy a normal-sized costume, so I'm psyched!  Bear is going to be Supergirl and I'm going to be Batgirl!  Nick refuses to dress up for Halloween until I'll let him buy a REAL Storm Trooper costume (we're talking hundreds of dollars...yeah...).  I'm hoping to be back to where I started by Halloween.  That would be a success for me.

On another note, I'm fairly certain my Sweat Points to calories burned ratio was wrong...why?  Because according to that formula, I burned 1200 calories in one hour this morning...no frakking way.  Did another search for it online and found a 10 to 1 ratio, which seems more likely.  So I burned 500 calories this morning.  Holy smokes, it's fun!

Have a great day, y'all!

Back On Track

I got up to 195 last Monday, but have gotten back down to 192 as of this Monday, so I'm feeling pretty good.  I still have yet to have an OP weekend, but I'm determined that this one will be the one!  DETERMINED, I tell you!

Bought Just Dance 3 last night and it is SO much fun!  I highly recommend it.  Consensus on the net is that 4.2 Sweat Points = 1 Calorie burned.  Last night, I was dancing with the game and Nick and I noticed Bear had stood up and was dancing (aka bouncing) with the music, too.  So he started recording and it was a good thing, too because next thing we know, she's taking her wobbly first few steps!  I couldn't believe it!

Feeling super inspired and glad for life right now!  Hope you're having a great day, too!

I ♥ Tuna

Tuna...is...wonderful.  My daughter doesn't think so, but I think it has to do with the fact it's difficult to chew for her.  It's nommy.  And when mixed with low-fat mayo and sweet relish and spread on 1 slice of bread, it's not unhealthy either.  It was only 185 calories according to myfitnesspal and I feel very satisfied.

Oikos Greek Yogurt, however, tastes like butt.  I hate it.  I bought enough for the whole week and couldn't barely swallow one bite...Still trying to figure out what to do for breakfast this week...ended up skipping this morning because I couldn't decide.  Maybe eggs for tomorrow???

Big family dinner tonight.  I know there will be grilled chicken and rice-a-roni for sure and God only knows what else...lol.  I'm determined to stay on plan today, so I will.

I will close with typing out a vocal warm-up I learned in choir in middle school...ahem:

I love Bumblebee!  Bumblebee Tuna!
I love  Bumblebee! Bumblebee Tuna!
Yum!  Yum! Bumblebee!  Bumblebee Tuna!
I love my sandwich made with Bumblebeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Temptation Challenges

So I watch The Biggest Loser, along with many other people in the world, and something occurred to me the other day when I was sitting around the fire pit rejecting a s'more.  Temptation Challenges...they're always HUGE in the show and life isn't always THAT bad.  For example, last week, the contestants had a choice to eat a full plate of donuts so they could select which time of day their team would work out (the winner ate 37!!!!!).  When in real life are you going to be tempted with eating 37 donuts?  Probably never, but there are real life decisions we make in regards to food every day.

One thing for me is a seasonal thing that comes around EVERY October...and no...it's not Halloween.  It's Monopoly at McDonald's.  What is it about those little pull tabs?  The possibility to win instantly a NEW CAR?!?  Or money to help my family get out of debt or finish our portion of the house?  I don't knowexactly what the draw is for me, but no matter what's going on, I always fail to McDonald's in October.  I've eaten there 3 times in the last 4 days and my body hates me.  The temptation there?  Exchange my diet for fun and the possibility to win (btw...the only thing I've won is a medium fries and 60 coke points...).

Another temptation that gets me every time, and I'm sure it gets you too, is family eating.  Whether it's at home or eating out.  Everyone else is eating...can you resist the temptation to eat, too?  Or what about when a family member goes out of the way to get something deliciously sinful JUST for you?  What about then?  Lately, I've been having a lot of big family meals, mainly because Nick, Bear, and I are living out at The Barn and the family has been eating like they normally do.  Oh...there's always a healthier way to eat, but who can resist the bread?  The rice-a-roni?  The pasta?  The cake, cookies, and ice cream?  Maybe I can now that I've gotten behind why I give in all the time.

Off topic:
I'm searching for a job in either Monroe, Redmond, or Kirkland, WA.  I'm interested in Administrative Assistant positions or Assistant Teacher/Helper positions in day care.  If you know of anything, please let me know.

Blog Renewed!

I've been posting blogs on Weight Watchers and had a break between when I started this blog the first time and now.  When I restarted WW in September of 2010 after having my baby, I was 242 lbs.  I am now 195.  I am needing to drop WW because of financial reasons, but have found blogging to be so helpful for me in the past that I intend to keep up with this one.  I'll be continuing my weight loss journey with myfitnesspal.com.  I've already started the transition and will be completely be over there at the end of this month.  The app and website are amazing.  Looking forward to more success!