Self-Control. Not in general. A specific self-control. Against food. I have been struggling with it ever since I was called "tubby" for the first time in 7th grade. Motivation to lose weight has gone back and forth between appearance and health. Now I see the issue is deeper than that.
By letting my cravings control by behavior, I give it a kind of power over me. I'm done allowing it to have power. I take it back and give it to God. No longer will I sit and mindlessly snack on butter toffee peanuts. No more dessert everyday. No more sky-high piles of food on my plate (twice). No more excuses or exceptions or just this last times anymore. As Sarah from Labyrinth said:
"Through dangers untold and hardships unnumbered, I have fought my way to the castle beyond the Goblin City to take back the child that you have stolen. For my will is as strong as yours and my kingdom as great. You have no power over me."
Only the castle is this moment, the Goblin City is my WLJ, the child is control, the Kingdom I am part of is greater than he who is of this world.
No longer will this darkness consume me to consume everything. I give it to my Light, my Way. He is my truth and I will embrace Him.
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