Its Been A While...I'll Tell You Why

3 weeks. I haven't weighed myself in 3 weeks.

Myfitnesspal tracking? Check...sorta...

Fitbit? Check.

Desire to lose the weight? Check.

Willpower? Nuh-uh. Nope. Nadda. MIA.

I have had a couple super good days; like I took a spin class last Tuesday and proceeded to workout the next night. I've been on this WLJ for a year and a half now and have made no progress since July. In fact, I've GAINED weight since then.

So why haven't I blogged? Embarrassment. Pure and simple.

I am going to continue to do my best to get back on track, but I just feel so discouraged right now. I will start by weighing in on Saturday...yeah. not looking forward to that...

Failed A Goal...Now What?

It appears as though I failed to hit my Comicon goal again.

But...it's not even May 4 yet...

Yeah. But in order to hit my goal at this point I'd have to lose 4.7 lbs a week and while they can pull big numbers like that on The Biggest Loser, there's just no way out here in the real world. Plus, I want the weight loss to last and I know that slow and steady wins the race.

So...now what? Comicon was a major motivator...

But not the ultimate prize. While it's a massive disappointment that I won't be meeting Matt Smith, Arthur Darvel, and Karen Gillam next year, when I hit my goal weight, I will look better, feel better, and be healthier for my family and myself.

So cheers to failing! Without it, success wouldn't be as sweet!

WI 3/3/12

I was good this week. I had a good feeling about the scale.

0...0...0...193

Yay! A 3.4 lb loss! Good morning Katie Kat!

I was especially proud of myself yesterday. I had my first workout since all this dental work happened. I only lasted about 20 minutes, but I did it! Bear and I went to lunch with GG and Gabe at Red Robin. Glancing over the menu, there were lots of tempting things.

Ooo...guacamole bacon burger with bottomless fries!

You don't want that...

Teriyaki Chicken Sandwich with bottomless fries?

Closer...

Wrapped in lettuce for no extra charge.

Even closer...

With broccoli instead of fries?

THERE YA GO! Good choice!

So that's what I had and it was delicious. To be honest, it's the best thing I've ever had there. Between that and my breakfast, I didn't have enough calories left for the pigs in a blanket that were planned for dinner. So I had Greek yogurt and Slim fast and started doing dishes as soon as I was done so I didn't eat the pigs in a blanket. It was so hard. They smelled SO good,but I didn't give in!

WI 2/25/2012

Key in hand, I find my way back to the gate. It had been a long week. It was painful and difficult.

This week's journey cost me my  wisdom teeth and I was drugged for relief from the pain all week. I tracked everything I ate and was careful to stay within my calorie allowance because I couldn't workout.

I had the key, but knew it would only work if I was under 200. I can't believe I let myself get back here. Hesitantly, I stepped onto the scale...

196.4

Whew! As quickly as I could, I put the key in the lock and turned it. Bright light shined on me and it hurt my eyes because I had been in the dark for so long. I ran into it and a flood of relief hit me. I looked around. It appeared normal again. I had a path again and it was clear. Taking a deep breath in, I moved forward. This is going to be a good week.

May the fourth be with you!

Good Feeling

Sometimes I get a good feeling. I get a feeling that I've never ever ever ever had before. No no. I get a good feeling. Yeah.

No, my pain is not gone yet. The good feeling is the swift relief I feel when I take my pain meds properly. I've only been taking one because I didn't want to run out before the pain was gone, but when I called my dentist to find out if I could take anything on top of it, she said that if I ran out before the pain was gone, she could refill it for me. So now I'm taking the full dosage. Happily, the pain is mostly gone, but it makes me SO tired.

I miss being active. Last week, Nick was home and we were out and about a lot, so I didn't really workout at all. And this week, I'm not allowed to workout. Apparently, if my heart rate gets too high, it will raise my blood pressure, which could blow out the clots in my tooth holes and make me bleed all over the place.

I've been reflecting on this today. I used to live like this normally. Sitting or laying around doing nothing. I feel like crap, but this used to be my average day! The only difference is that I used to snack all day on top of doing nothing. Luckily, I'm not to eat normal food until the pain has subsided completely and I feel comfortable eating.

Don't worry! I've been drinking Slim Fast 3x a day to make sure I'm getting all the nutrients I need and Greek yogurt for breakfast and other healthy soft foods. Anyway, I'm looking forward to working out again, whenever that will be.

May the fourth be with you!

Pain, Gain, and a Bargain

Last night, I went to the dentist to get my crown for the tooth that had a root canal a couple weeks ago and 3 fillings. The plan was to come back on Thursday to have my remaining 3 wisdom teeth removed. My dentist had spare time last night, so she offered to just do them last night. I agreed. I'm not sure if I'm brave, stupid, or a little bit of both. I woke up last night automatically every time I was due for a new pain pill. I anticipated pain, but nothing this bad. On the bright side, this should do it for dental work for a long time.

My dentist happens to have an 18-month-old girl born the day after Bear, so we decided we should take our kiddos out on a play date some time. Since she is so busy with her job, she said it would be next month at some point and would call me for it. We'll be taking the girls to this place called Jump City. It should be fun!

Before all this pain, I had spent the day at our Moving Sale. Nick sold his server and rack! Then, we went to Blockbuster to pick up some movie shelves our family purchased from their closing sale. Nick and I also purchased a couple movies and I got a great deal on a game. I had looked at the games they had out and they were, of course, the stupid ones because the closing sale had been going on for some time. But behind the counter, I saw the deep purple of Kinect games. I asked the guy about them and he said they were Just Dance 3. So I got it! $14.99! After recovery, I'll play it for a few days so I can give it a fair review.

Now, I shall let the narcotics do their job and take me to sleepy land.

May the fourth be with you!

WI 2/19/2012

Hmmm...this is a pretty gate.

As I approached the gate that brought me into the new week, I examined it further. It was pastel pink with white tips and round colorful balls all throughout. I had success the previous week and just knew I'd do great this week. When I got to the gate, I discovered the gate was made of some strawberry Jolly Ranchers. The white tips were actually vanilla frosting and the colorful balls were Skittles.

Okay...Am I on the right path?

I didn't remember turning or anything, so I proceeded through the gate. The gate slammed shut behind me.

That's odd...it usually closes slowly.

Normally, there were temptations along the sides of the path, but this was ridiculous. There were cupcake bushes, candy trees, ice cream boulders, soda fountains, juice lakes, and other delicious creations. I also saw seats of bread, tables of pizza, willow trees of pasta, and other savory things.

Where is all the healthy food?

That's when I noticed the small plates of veggies and lean meats along the way. But they were so overwhelmed by the other things, I had to look closely to find them. I did, though, and ate the healthy things...and everything else too. I walked slowly, careful to not do too much work.

As this path ended, I saw the new gate for the new week. It was black and spikes protruded from the top. I figured I must have somehow gone the wrong way, so I turned around to look. Pitch black. I couldn't see anything. The only way to go was through the scary gate. Slowly, I stood on the scale and then I knew what what was happening.

200.2

"No!!!"

A mysterious force dragged me through the gate that takes me out of Onederland.

"I don't want to go!"

I heard and felt my nails scraping and breaking against the hard concrete floor, but it was useless. The gate slammed when I was in and
I heard the gate lock. I stood up and examined my surroundings. It was dark. A flashlight appeared in one hand and a note in the other. I shined the light on the note and it said this:

Katie-
Welcome back to the 200's. There is no path here, just wide open space and darkness. Isn't this fun?!? Here, you will enjoy everything you want to eat without real shame. You don't even need to move, the ground will move you further and further from the gate without you needing to use any energy at all and the food will appear before you. It will only cost you your figure and your health. If you really insist on getting back to Onederland, you will need to use this flashlight to wander off the moving ground and run to seek out healthy foods and the key to the gate. Have a great time!

Love,
Gluttony

PS-haha! Take THAT, Willpower!

This is going to be a loooooong week.

May the fourth be with you.